Passive-Aggressive?


This evening, my other half is away on business as he is a couple nights a week. This has been going on since August of last year. Before that, it was very rare that he was ever gone. Busy doing other things around the house - for sure. But away from the house with the guys, for work or in the bar watching a game - never. In fact, any time he did get a call, I practically kicked him out the door to go and get out of the house. 


I'm OK with it because, as I alluded to in my previous post, I basically do it all here folks.  Well, not the house projects or lawn care or car maintenance and such. This is a big chunk of time as well - chunks spent away from the kids, however. But I am getting off the point here. The part that bothers me the most is after the kids go to bed. The two of us usually stay up until 11, maybe 12, doing our separate things more often than not. We don't have a functional living room so we have the flat screen wall mounted in our bedroom with cable and Tivo box, as well as Netflix streaming. I have my laptop and work stuff in the room so that I can watch while working, or stop to focus and watch. Herein lies the problem: when he goes, I am at a complete loss of what to do. I  don't know any channels - he usually handles that. I don't know how to work the Tivo - again, his. For some reason I really don't want to watch a movie even though I can watch whatever drama I can get my hands on without a complaint. And, I usually don't even feel like working - it's too quiet. So, for the most part I read until I fall asleep, and last night that was 9:45 PM. I already made it past that time writing this blog this evening. Wow. 


For a person that is constantly making decisions throughout the day, I can't make this one.